finished my co-op term! i'd like to do some reflection...and thinking...
this term has been very scary and lonely at moments. struggling to find entertainment and enjoyment in being alone most of the time, not being able to see or speak to many of my friends, this co-op term has definitely made me think about my life way more than i used to. i'd love to say that i'm more motivated and hardworking than ever, but the truth is that i'm constantly in a rut and i can't seem to get out. i can see the people around me constantly improving and i desperately try to keep up but still struggle with the truth. 2b will be my best term!! i will count on a new semester and my new found, good-for-nothing confidence to guide me along a journey.
i wrote that first section while still completing my last two weeks at my job. now that i look back, i really do enjoy working! wayyy more than school... i really enjoyed working with coworkers that became my friends. i struggled with my self-worth a lot last term because i felt like i was nothing compared to my friends. it was a lot of pressure being mostly alone and struggling to keep up social-wise and education-wise. but now i'm back on track! i just finished my first week of school and FINALLY got those harmony exams done with. i could not care less if i pass though, i put enough effort and i'm okay with the L.
finally employed! to be honest, getting a job made me feel more worth haha. it should never be that way, but getting a job really lifted the biggest anvil off of my chest. i fear that i'm not qualified for anything and wouldn't get any interviews... but here we are! i did the interview in april during my lunch break and got the offer a month later :) so much waiting and anticipation and i'm very grateful that i am successful! however i lack the skills to actually use waterlooworks and i lack a sense of rejection or failure!! not good because it is bound to happen one day. for now, i'll just bathe in my happiness of finding a job.
didn't expect to hear back from kpmg, for consulting even! what the hell do i even know about consulting!? i like technology and that's my only qualification.
i'll try to update and make frequent posts about how things are going in school because i KNOW i am going to be behind :)
have a great day! i'll see you next time